I saw my changing faces through the mirror, I watched me change as my story changed.
Mama used to tell me ..when she was my age she never had big hips and wide stomach and my reply always was '' I am a 21st century child, I’m butter’, I bet u never had this luxury back in those days''
Once upon a time, I had a tiny waist line and broad shoulders that needed no shoulder pads, but I someday lost all that through pressures and depression, happiness, heart breaks and fear. My first job was right after college, I felt fabulous, working on the island and earning quite good, I could do whatever and eat whatever, I was hott, I had lunch dates and date nights, I took to chocolates and had them as regular gifts from so many prospective.. Lunch was always the high point of my day because the meal too was fabulous. I had some sort peace of mind up until the rainy days, things went bumpy at some point and through those times I took to eating. I blew! the growth was rapid, It got to me when everyone complained, my parents, Dad especially thought I was losing it, mum’s was a constant, I felt so embarrassed when I saw an old friend who knew me in my slim days and shocked to see how big I had turned. I started from a size 8 to a size 10+ and when I grew to size 12, I thought it wasn’t so bad and before I knew it I was a confirmed size 14. I also had the toilet problem, I could stay for almost one week without the need to use the toilet, so imagine me eating all the rubbish and not going to toilet for one week, it was just crazy. I still had my pretty face but my body needed help, I was depressed, I couldn’t tell anyone how I felt, I couldn’t tell anyone I hated myself so I kept it all in and acted great from the outside. I thought body magic was the solution, i bought it and made sure i dint step out of my house each day without wearing it but it dint work, i was just living in denial. My hip was a massive 47, with chubby cheeks and drum stomach, I had had just enuf!!!
In November 2011, I made a resolution, I told God of my worries, I told Him I dint feel beautiful, that I lost my confidence, that I was regularly depressed and took to eating to feel better. I move my diet plans to January so I could at least indulge in all d Christmas goodies for d last time. I gave myself a target and Jan 1st 2012 I started..
My target: from Size 80 to 65
How was I to accomplish this? I tried registering at a gym but I ran away when I heard d cost, It was damn too expensive. I had to think of an alternative, of a way that was cheap, drastic and crude.
I resolve to stop eating completely, I thought food brought be this dangerously far and I had had just enough, I stopped eating, I stayed to liquid, Rice was a NO NO!, I opted for wheat bread instead of the regular bread, I had biscuit and water instead of biscuit and beverage, I had green tea with no sugar or milk like 5 cups every day(so bitter), I had groundnuts regularly in my car, in my drawer at work and at home cos that became my quick snack when I was hungry and Lucozade sports for energy when I felt weak. Since I couldn’t afford a gym, I took long walks for about 1hour each for at least twice during the week after work and two hours during the weekends, this was equivalent to a tread mill which helped a great deal to tone down my muscles.
The change was instant, I watched my cheeks dropped, they sank in fast and my folded neck grew lean, by the end of February 2012, I was fab’ and proud. Today 1st March 2012, I weigh 68, my mission continues till March end to weigh 65. Take notes of what kept me through..
Truth: I knew my major problem was food, and I cut it off completely without mercy! I kept my eyes on the price and kept to some rules that I must share with you.
If your weight bothers you that much, you need to acknowledge it as a problem and resolve to find a solution.
No pain no gain: To achieve, you need to make sacrifices, deprive yourself and cut down excesses.
What’s your target: You need to know your current weight and your expected weight, putting your height into consideration as well, because there’s an actual weight for the small, average and tall woman.
Be consistent: After you have gained that great figure, you need to stay in check, kill the love for food and realize you don’t have to eat everything in one day, if you are an emotional person like I am and you take to food when you have those mood swings, you need to have an alternative habit, something else that will excite you and take away your crave for food.
Once in a while when I want to give myself a treat, for example: if I feel like a hot dog in the evening, I deprive myself of food, I’ll stick to fruits and liquid just to have a yummy hot dog in the evening. You could do that as well, make sacrifices for that party you want to attend during the weekend so you can enjoy eating while others are eating as well but not throwing caution to the wind!!! or for that ice cream you’ve been craving, go almost quarter of your meals for d week so you can have a merry weekend of a reasonable portion ice cream.
Its achievable, it’s obtainable!!! Your body is Gods temple, so love it! Be you plus or tiny sized, if you’ve lost your self esteem just cause of how you look, talk to God, tell him your fears and desires, make up your mind for a change and stick to your plans.
If I did it, I bet you can!
Note: These steps I took might not be medically right and might not work for you but heyy..it worked for me!